Friday, June 30, 2006
it's like 3am right now. and i just completed 80% of my "PEST" and "SWOT" analysis. Quite frustrated to see those in point forms, 80% doesn't have facts or articles to back it up, which means for the past 4.5hrs, not just analysing, but looking for good articles to back up. No wonder today i felt that i should take over the whole project and treat it as my own. (This is a seperate different group from my other 2 subjects.)
My body feels weak, but it seems like i can carry on till 5am in the morning. Been there, done that. Gonna leave the rest undone and finish it by weekend. I can't really see the computer screen clearly.
I'm jealous, jealous of the arrangement a tutor gave to my group mate. Leading advertising company, who in the world in marketing won't want that chance to go in!? But too bad, An A and a distinction just differentiates your capability. too bad DAVID ANG!
God, find me something better.
Central Area, Reputable company
Good company environment, things to do that will benefit me and increase my experience.
LIFT IT UP TO YOU, GOD.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 2:54 AM
Thursday, June 29, 2006
Sometimes i wonder is everything stopping?
That path seems quite dim at times.
Somehow or rather, it's seems difficult to see that light at the other end.
Just a dream that remains a dream?
Things doesn't seem the way it used to be?
What have gone wrong?
Or is my brain playing tricks on me?
Mcfly- I've Got You.
The world would be a lonely place
Without the one that puts a smile on your face
So hold me 'til the sun burns out
I won't be lonely when I'm down
'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
I never doubted you at all
The stars collide, will you stand by and watch them fall? (by and watch them fall)
So hold me 'til the sky is clear
And whisper words of love right into my ear
'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
Yeah when I got you
Oh to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together
Looking in your eyes
Hoping they won't cry
And even if you do
I'll be in bed so close to you
Hold you through the night
And you'll be unaware
But if you need me I'll be there
Yeah I got you
Oh to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
Yeah when I got you to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:13 AM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Had a discussion about how many children will be good for a family. what do you guys think? Someone said either 1, 3 or 5. i say 2 or 3. But don't you all think being the only child is rather boring? No one talk to you at home, share certain thing with, sometimes even had to be used as comparison with other people's children. I rather let my parents compared me and my sister or brother, at least i lose, also lose to someone who is my bro or sis! 3 is because you want to compare also don't know which one to compare with. ha! nice answer yeah.
Went for prayer meeting and it was good. My leader talked to me again. "You failed your calling once, but that's not the full stop, it's just a comma. I want to pursue it again, i need that breakthrough. I'm trusting my leader told me something because of my own good. i will trust her.
I didn't put because it won't bring
trouble.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 11:56 PM
Since i woke up this morning, i've been bugged by this word "Ostracize". It just won't leave my mind and i absolutely have no idea why is this word coming. I've not heard this word, have not learnt this word. This word actually means exclusion from a group by common consent. Why? i do want to know. I didn't know you can learn new words through sleeping. Interesting.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 1:23 AM
Monday, June 26, 2006
I must have woke up the wrong side of my bed. i woke up late for school at 9am. i took a cab to school, only to realise that services lecture was cancelled. I went to the library to catch some sleep while waiting for project meeting to start at 1030. Ended waking up at 1050am. Late again. To think that that is bad enough, i decided to go and have a haircut at tampines, thinking it will make me a little happier. When i reach Supercut at century square, the assistant told me that my hairstylist is on leave and will be back only on 29th June. I was so depressed already. Caught a movie with kelly, hanxian and amos. "Just My Luck". Really the show for me. The show was good, ending was good. I thought that would have comforted me a little. On my way back home, i lost my handphone pouch. I don't even know when i lost it! arghh. When i reached home, the lift wasn't working and i tot that's it. but it managed to work after a while. That's really enough, but my project groupmates sms-ed me just now, asking me to be more concerned about the project and more focus. Can someone please turn the clock to 12am? i can't wait for the day to pass.
A bad day, bad day.
But at least i still managed to catch a glimpse.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 10:10 PM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Had probably the most successful sub-zone outing today despite the bad weather and muddy field. I mean the people are really enthu! maybe not. ha. but well they didn't complain but i guess they enjoyed themselves! the seabreeze was so nice and made me doze off at the bench! Adam and i was stupidly fighting for the seashells available, without saying, i got the nicer ones. Its awesome.
Steph, Sandy, Me.
One of the most stupidest thing that happened today was my cell group cheering for that goal that was scored by argentina, which won them a place in the quarter-finals. They were so excited and cheering until i told them, "hey, this match was yesterday's. you could see people at the surrounding table thinking we are a bunch of mountain turtles lah!
For you.
what's the secret to the heart?
i wish to know.
[found out, understood]
-Choonsie Concludes- at 11:33 PM
A pic took with my zone aileen, while waiting for Sun to come.
SUN! (:
It was nice being up close with Sun. Her songs are really touching and i guess this is her best chinese album yet! I really do want to get ed hardy or skin, after what i heard from my leader about what bro edmund had told all the leaders. (: i will support! Chilled out with someone, really nice. Super nice. it was darn hilarious with all the stupid jokes going around. i want to go attend BCGM. hoho.
every little thing you do.
westlife- i wanna grow old with you
Things can come and go I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me
westlife know how i feel though i live in the east. ((:
-Choonsie Concludes- at 1:35 AM
Saturday, June 24, 2006
My cell group isn't growing for goodness sake. Passion, Urgency, Right attitude. It's all down to your willingness. Where was that kind of feel during cell group meeting? that kind of power flowing in the meeting, i don't really sense it anymore. Is it me or what? Where was that hunger to seek for God in the cg? Where was that joy on the member's face and excitement during Praise and Worship? Why do i not enjoy fellowshipping as much? Where was that excitement? Watching video can make them suddenly WOO so loudly. Praise and Worship? NONE. Not that i didn't stand in the gap. Not that i didn't take that lead. It's willingness.
i got a lot to say, but it just wont appear in this entry because of the difficulty to convert what im thinking right now into words for u all to read.
Don't feel bad
You didn't want it that way
There's nothing to hide
You know exactly what you were doing
Nothing was wrong.
Cheer up. (:
aw. i also want to give doll.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:40 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
Holland V. rocks lah. went there with glenn, had chill out session with huiying and her friend. shania, which huiying cant pronounce it correctly! it was hell lots of fun laming, joking and my ICE CHOCOLATE MILK ELEPHANCINNO is good! though tasted like milo. haha. maybe milo is better. yeah so had fun really fun fun funn. there are so many nice chill out place at that holland! well, you don't need a passport and a bus ride can take you there.(: I LOVE TO CHILL WITH YOU GUY and GIRLS! (requested to be fair) FUN IS ALL I CARE.
shania, change ur blog to get a tagboard. i found out from hy. ha!
i love simplicity
and in you i see it
its a good thing.
i'm addicted to your smile (:
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:18 AM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
In awe of you
Verse1
All of my love for you
I draw close to you
My heart’s desire
Long for that touch
That comforts my heart
And Im longing for more
Pre-chorus
Day and night I yearn for you
Jesus Christ comes make me new
More than anything
Chorus
I give you my all
For all that you do
When everything fails
I know you’re faithful
I find hope in you
With all that I do
I’m just in awe of you
Verse 2
Beyond description
I’m amazed
By your mercy and grace
And what you’ve gave
I will never forget
And forever I will praise
________________________________________________________________
Another song written, gonna really perfect this song. inspiration rain on me pls! writing song is very quickly becoming part of my life. Projects are part of my life too but its becoming too irritating that i have to go back school and do all these. All the ice cream and breadtalk. EE. anyway i saw the video of the 13 year old girl who got beaten up so badly. It's disturbingg. Why offer bother to play a joke that would risk ur own life? handing a condom to a guy who has "ah lian" girlfriend. Finding trouble.
Good that everything has ended well
just continue and BREATHE AGAIN!
i will. yes you. don't look left right or behind. take a mirror and what u see, that is it. (:
-Choonsie Concludes- at 11:52 PM
The day will come
Please come, but no way to letting it go. but first it must come.
Someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain.
why samson love delilah.
why i am the one for you.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 3:29 AM
a man approached me. "hi, could you help me with...." just because i'm wearing this puma tee in a puma shop with this landyard which make me a 100% retail assistant alike. hahaa. that guy was like sorry but u were wearing puma. i would like him to continue the story for me.. wear puma means work in puma.. next pls.
had a coffee session with huiying and glenn. super nicee. just talk and sometimes just got to stop, sit down, talkk.
i just dun like the feel of having holidays but yet u are to do so much on your projects. this sucks. but well i still have to do it for the As and my GOAL.
what's next?
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:50 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006
ET zone peeps!
Tim 1, Lucas and Me!
Happy birthday Bro edmund, Sis Jiahui and baby nicole! God bless you people tremendously! lead us to greater heights!
Had some real fruitful time with the zone peeps. It has been a long time since we met up and real talk our hearts out. People like lucas, tims, yiulong and others. It's during this time when iron sharpens iron and how all those encouragment really plays it big.
It's hurts to You there
with that big cross You have to bear.
What i wanna say is a big thank You
with an additional i love You.
Thanks for being my encourager. you are just simply more than words. (: i will definitely write songs with lyrics and tunes straight down from heaven!
-Choonsie Concludes- at 2:07 AM
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Here we are
Just a little older
Time goes by
But did I ever tell you why
I want you so much
It came to me
When you were not around
You'll always be
The one to understand that's why
I can't miss your touch
All my life
I waited for someone
And all this time
You were the one
So
If you want a man that is here to stay
Swearing he's forever true
I'll never walk away
I'll never give up on you
And if you want a love that will save the day
No matter what you're going through
I'll never walk away
I'll never walk out on you
I've been a fool
I didn't see behind
The friend in you
And baby don't you ask me why
It just couldn't be love
Cause from the start
You would be the one
To cure my heart
But I just didn't look this way
And now I can't get enough
All my life
I waited for someone
And all this time
You were the one, so
If you want a man that is here to stay
Swearing he's forever true
I'll never walk away
I'll never give up on you
And if you want a love that will save the day
No matter what you're going through
I'll never walk away
I'll never walk out on you
And with a kiss you turned my world around
The greatest rush of all was to be found
Oh yeah
You changed my whole life
Coloured up the dark skies
And this I promise you
Could this be it? aweesomeeee.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:08 AM
Saturday, June 17, 2006
Recently i'm here into songwriting, and obviously it's because i always had the thing for songwriting and bro KC songs made me wanna write even more. Different melody just flow in when i pick up the guitar to play. The difficult part is always the lyrics. But when the words come, its all the way for that song. I love it! I'm gonna write songs with tune and lyrics straight from heaven!
Nice, Awesome, Wonderful
Enjoyable, Lovely, Sweet
Fun, Amazing
-Choonsie Concludes- at 6:20 PM
Some time ago, i knew of these 2 people, Gareth and Sharon. Gareth was the most sought after person in his company because of what he can contribute to his department. Sharon, an executive in the same company but different department. Due to some events, they got to know each other and Gareth had that thing for sharon the moment they exchange greetings. Though he had seen her in the past events, they only smile when see each other. Gareth knew something special about sharon. He finds her real independent and differentiates herself from other girls. They got to know each other better and better and they would meet up for lunch and stuff. One day Gareth make a mistake in a deal which cost the company millions of dollar. The management stripped away his title and because of his contribution in the past, he falls to executive. Meanwhile, sharon is rising up more in her position and she seize her opportunity that she is promoted to be manager. Gareth is feeling that he might be a hinderance to her. He is determined to bounce back from his mistake. I'm believing that gareth will bounce back soon because dreams are resurrected and there is a motivator.
Kind of dumb though, but well. I seriously need some shopping. i'm cominggg.
i like the gift
i like those scribbling
i like every moment
i like the chatting
i like all the time spent
Effort, time anything are worth spending, on the right person.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 2:00 AM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
ALL MY LIFE
Verse:
ALL OF THIS LIFETIME
I SEEK FOR ONE THING
WHEN I MET YOU
I KNOW ITS OVER
INSPIRED BY YOU
I PULL MYSELF UP
TO BE WITH YOU
Pre-Chorus:
AND I MAKE THIS MOVE FOR YOU
YOU'RE THE REASON FOR THIS CAUSE
Chorus:
BECAUSE OF YOU, I FEEL BRAND NEW
FOR ALL THIS TIME, YOU NEVER FAIL
YOU ARE THE ONE FOR ALL MY LIFE
WHAT COME MAY TILL THE END OF TIME
A song that is written inspired by you.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 11:43 PM
My back and legs are aching, darn. Glenn and i was like sleeping on the couch and we had to restrict so much of our leg movements in order not to kick each other. Jeremy came down to watch the Germany match and we had some good time catching up. It's been a long time since we really talk and i mean TALK. Project disgustion was totally awesome. I just love the way my group members trying to make every part of the project so perfect. There will never be a time where your answer won't need some justification.
i picked up a phone call early in the morning and man what a news i heard. sickening lah, but i choose to remain calm because it's just not the way people interpret. haha. ASSUME = making an ASS out of U and ME. But well, people want to know things and knowledge is power.
forgo it because resting is needed.
though i wanted very much to meet.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 10:17 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Prayer meeting was really good. Shattered dreams will be resurrected. You've not forgotten about me. Going to darren's house to watch soccer later. Won't be back till tommorrow night and yeah tommorrow night. a good night. (: Online yesterday was bored, very bored but glenn. hahaaa good talk with you and yeahhhh fly higher!
Thank God for technology. At least still not that bad. Hees. But still..
-Choonsie Concludes- at 9:36 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
The show "The OMEN" is actually quite predictable, but i still got shocks even though i told the rest what will happen next. haha. Went slacking with huiying glenn and jon cai. Time really past so fast for the time we took to walk from wheellock place to esplanade. Took a series of photos including some "sleepy" kind but was deleted by huiying! my camera's sound betrayed me! But well anyway..
Huiying! take care yeah and enjoy yourself! ((: "M"
Anyway i wrote this song with a tune i took like 5mins to come out with while waiting for huiying to take bus to bedok. haaa.
Will update once the lyrics are okay. It's half way. hohooo gonna be good i think.
All for you.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 8:09 PM
Monday, June 12, 2006
Went to darren's place for soccer matches. i tell you, darren haohan and glenn super sleepy head lah. keep sleeping. but well at least they did watch the argentina's match.
Service was real awesome but a pity we are so far behind. we are going for nearer seats to the stage!
Running through my mind for some time till bible study today woken me back to my senses. i must treat as if the cell group won't be as strong without me rising up more to the occasion. i play a BIG part.
Jesus asked peter, do you love Me more than these? then "Feed My Lamb".
Jesus asked peter second time, do you love Me? then "Tend My Sheep".
Jesus asked peter third time, do you love Me? then "Feed my Sheep"
God, it's what you have given to me from the start. i gonna be a good finisher of my Faith and i'm coming back even stronger for You.
Past experience, Past failure are histories anyway. i look forward to the upward call of Christ Jesus.
It won't pull me down, i might be a little slow now, but it will come (:
Huiying and Glenn - We will rise up and do great things in the Kingdom of God! It's the time we gonna do MORE.
i like it all.
everything. (:
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:41 AM
Saturday, June 10, 2006
A new blogskin! thanks to kazumi for all the editing, appreciate it!
not in the mood for blogging.
dilemma.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:49 AM
Friday, June 09, 2006
Not a bad outing with the TRP peeps. but different feel. i heard from jiahui that Ritz Carlton hires Intern. hoping she can fetch me some good news! i might be in the marketing team of Ritz Carlton. Just imagine showing my portfolio to my future boss, looking at being attached to Ritz Carlton before must be a boost to my job securing!
I give it all to You.
It's too difficult.
I just don't understand why.
Leave me there.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 1:19 AM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Term test is over. actually i'm not really excited. It's like rushing through yet not getting all those facts in my head. It comes and goes. No sense of satisfaction. i got to buck up. anyway, it's still over! resting time.
I'm praying for good results. Only good results can show i'm a good juggler. (: gonna shine for You!
Those who have subscribe to leadership files, go read, patience.
The time spent studying in the library passed so fast
It's never the same feel again.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 9:16 PM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Sales Management paper seems like Organisation Behavior. Asking questions like dressing sharp, eye contact and smile. oh man. City Harvester must be good at answering that! yeah the paper was relatively easy, hoping for good grades. (: One more paper to go! services marketing! i'm coming to conquer you!
2days.
in your arms, is everything i want
now i know my search is over - westlife.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 8:33 PM
Monday, June 05, 2006
brand management.. well i still thank God for giving me the timing to study and the RIGHT things to study. blame it on myself for diverting my focus on other things, falling asleep. i neeed to score! i don't want to see a C. please God.. at least a B pleasee.
So many things running in my mind, i really wanted to focus but how?
Where was that kind of zeal to study? That motivation? Was i really depending on that?
Renew my mind, i need.
Right in the middle of my heart. engraved your name.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 7:00 PM
I'm firm with my decision. once i've made it, nothing can change it. maybe it shouldn't have started and it won't cause so much pain. You don't know how much i went through, songs and songs that i heard, make me feel guilty of it. I shouldn't have made that mistake, a mistake that left a scar on you. I've let so many people down.
I don't know what to do. i'm lost.
Could someone tell me what to do?
i hope i have found,
but is it really true?
I don't want history to repeat
i want the One.
Over the months,
i know i need .
It's obvious..
one side two side?
a clear cut answer is what i need.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 3:04 AM
Sunday, June 04, 2006
How am i feeling right now? i don't know. we are not in the top 3. well. i guess everything happened for some reason. Anyway we still have the next generation of TRPians. They are a potential bunch.
Conference have been awesome so far. expect more for the finale.
I feel like setting up a CS team with my ex-HBF mates. All are from church and man we are going to be like Daniel in the gaming world. Shall see how it goes.
The songs written by brother KC are simply awesome. beautiful songs. presence of God. i just love it.
I wanna start writing songs. songs that will captivate, songs that are pleasing to ears. songs that are going to impact..
Who knows years down the road, the praise or worship songs that will be sung in church are all written by me? who knows?
Sun came, the songs in her new album. touching and nice. i love it.
it might seems that i cant,
but i must overcome and continue the process of it.
i want to know.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:12 AM
Thursday, June 01, 2006
All the effort
All the time sacrificed
All the perspiration
All the pain
All the bruises
All the cuts
All the hard work
All the planning
All the late nights
All the chreographing
All the fun
All the jokes
All the co-ordination
All the friends i made (:
Few months of work, will be portrayed out in 1 night.
it's going to be good. real GOOD.
TRP, thanks i love you people!
special mention to my stunts team, huiying, hanxian and jasper!
you people are the best!
it just felt good today.
it's the same but it don't feel the same.
i'm showing partiality towards gorgeous you.
smiles that never fail to put a smile.
-Choonsie Concludes- at 12:53 AM
