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-Singing
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-Fashion


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-WS & HM
-Trip to Taiwan and China!
-Tough Jacket!$209
-Power MacBook Pro
-My Driving License
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  • Tuesday, August 29, 2006
    It was another great sleep at home till 3pm. It always happened on monday especially.

    Went to Tampines to play basketball with the Emerge people though Pastor Yock Kiang went to KL for Emerge. Pastor Derek, Bro Meng How and Bro Kenny came to play. Haha. It was kind of stress to play in the same team as Pastor Derek. Anyhow, we won most of our games. Was super exhausted. Oh not forgetting, Bro Meng How shoes was spoilt like within 30seconds to the game? Super funny.

    Oh, i found this link at Theresa's blog and i decided to do it. Below is the result i've gotten. Kind of cool.




    QuizGalaxy!
    'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com


    Missed by Paris Hilton? I wish! Probably she will be singing to me "Stars are Blind" or something, which i think i would bounce back to life. haha.

    I'm having my Advanced Theory on Driving tomorrow, and i'm only half way to what i need to know. The first time i'm going it through! Will there be a miracle tomorrow? Stay tuned. :)


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 1:30 AM

    Sunday, August 27, 2006
    The weekend has been GREAT.

    Saturday

    Sat was really a long day for me. Our sub-zone had an outreach at Changi Beach. It was really a long long journey to the place where we booked out pit! Assuming that i flag a cab at Changi Village, that would have cost me at least $4 to reach the place where our pits were! We really saw how long a beach can be. haha. So we played rounders and some games and we had BBQ. Well, it was quite alright i guess. Hope the friends will stay. So due to time constraint, Darren and I went home earlier to prepare for 9.30pm Bible Study at Bro Edmund's house, which is at Toa Payoh! In the end, due to our super lateness, Bro Edmund decided to cancel the BS and in our hearts we were kind of glad. Shing has to catch up with her studies and both Darren and I are looking forward to our supper with SheeZheng fresh back from China and the rest of the TRP.

    We had our usual Ban-Li feast and chatting around. So around 11 plus, most of them went off and were left with Sheezheng, Darren, Calynne, Juncen, Darren Chung and I. We went to Mac for further chatting and Jocelin came to join us after her work. So we were up to our usual stupid jokes and stuff.

    Okay, so it was really late and i suggested we go home because gEr and I were planning something for Calynne and i managed to know where Cal's place was and an idea came to me of how the surprise should be done. Darren chung and Juncen was kinda interesting to be part of it so they stayed with me as we waited for the late queen to arrive.

    Finally, we managed to write the cards and the cake was bought at 7-11 due to " i don't wish to mention" HAHA! Okay, so when we were done with what we were doing, we called cal and it seems that she fell asleep already! So gEr called her house and her brother woke her up to look out from her kitchen's window.

    Set up with the candles, and not light bulbs please!

    So she came down and we sang her birthday song, she made wishes and presentS time!

    The birthday girl and the candles!

    Calynne and gEr =)

    The Surprise team!

    Calynne with her new bead necklace, whatever you call that.

    Calynne with her new ZARA top. haha.

    Calynne with her new PUMA bag! coolness!

    And so, we went to the coffeeshop below her house to chit-chat. We were served Coke light and Haagen Dazz ice cream can! So nice, and well we were laughing like some crazy people that got drunk. And i tell you, Coke light makes me drunk. haha. Literally, the whole 2 hrs or so, we were laming, joking, self-entertaining and stuff. Even the security guard who was guarding the stuff at Shop and Save was laughing. It was really a fun time and i was blurting out nonsense upon nonsense and so many wrong stuff! Refer to Cal's blog in few days time for those stupid mistakes.

    Well, we went home and we didn't had a good sleep! Cal, Juncen and I were so awake that we couldn't really sleep. Probably, because of what Pastor Kong is going to talk about during Sun's service. ha! Oh yes, not to forget, we found like 10 over packets of chilli, ketchup and mayo sauce in Juncen's bag can!? We laugh like crazy and gEr was laughing like Monkey! oh man, i'm sorry, she is monkey. =X

    Sunday

    So met up with Cal and gEr to go expo again. Reached expo and went in to put our bags and we were out again to the entrance to enjoy our Mac breakfast. Theresa was with us and she was like No, will make me fat and she bit parts of the egg muffin off. The next minute she bit the hashbrown and next, drinking of the milo. HAHA. Oh, Thanks for that special box of SWEETIES and the note. Greatly Appreciated by the Great. haha.

    So service was awesome! I was sitting next to this 20 plus years of age lady and she was an usher. So whenever Pastor asked to turn to the neighbour and say something like "Sex is awesome" she would like blush or something! Her blushing is better than those blusher you can find at MAC or something?! LOLL.

    Went Marina Square for lunch after Service. Went to play pool and after pool, i was so tired that i literally slept that the racing car's seat. That dumb adam took photo of me sleeping.

    Caught sleeping while driving =)

    So yeah after that we went to KFC for dinner and we were talking about ADAM's AHEM you know. yar, so we finally know the whole truth. Thanks to Tim. And yes, we were up to our nonsense again and practically it was Nick AGAIN. Nothing new.

    It seems like those hands were SANDY's!? LOLL

    The usual hangouts people.

    That box of Sweety stuff and note. =))

    Well, tommorrow is the start of exam for TRP.

    Huiying,Shing,Calynne,Glenn,Aileen,Kelly and peeps, please study hard and do well and shine for the LORD!

    Same goes to Tim 1! Do well for your Prelims and get ready for your National Exams!

    Oh yes, Theresa, if you are reading this, PLEASE CHEER UP! I WANT TO SEE THE PLAYFUL CRAZY LUOHAN! Don't be stress or anything that is bothering you! :))


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 11:25 PM

    Thursday, August 24, 2006



    Haha out of boredom i try to download a program and start doing these things. Anyway this is a pic with the creative directors. hahaa that makes me one also :)


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 11:02 PM

    Today was a pretty good day. Went Queensway Shopping Centre together aaron and adam. We then met lucas and weiwen. So the purpose of the trip was actually to get a new basketball. Well, as we went round to check for basketball, it was quite amazing that the price of the basketball at the next shop that we popped by gets lower, so we walked one round the ground floor and eventually bought it at price of $42.

    Lucas bought a pair of yellow Nike shoes at $60! It was real cheap and the co-owner of the shop wasn't too happy because another owner gave lucas too low a price for that shoe. Well, it was a good buy and i got myself a pair of Adidas Old School kind of shoes at only $89. Well, it's rather normal but i like it. haha. Oh yes, Adam gave me a bag too! Thank you so much. I like it. God is good!

    So we proceeded to lucas place to play basketball and it was well a good game with the friends that came. haha.

    Anyway something weird actually happened when we were on our way out from lucas place. While we were walking and chatting away, my leg suddenly kind of got absorbed into those drain-hole by the road? It's like something pulling my leg in. Den i remember that people are actually burning those joss-paper and stuff so it's kind of freaky. It is difficult when i bathe because there are cuts on my right leg and it is super painful!

    [Adidas - Abdul Jabar series for only $89!?]

    [The bag that adam gave me! haha]

    [Fried Mars Bar from Chippy? It's darn good but sinful i tell you.]


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 12:05 AM

    Wednesday, August 23, 2006
    2 decades ago, a baby boy named Jerome came to this world. Unfortunately, at the age of 2, his parents divorced and the custody goes to the mother. The father didn't want him to be a burden. Together with his mum, he lives with his grandparents and his 2 uncles. They have been taking care of him and all expenses are paid by the grandparents. His mum worked in a factory but would splurged money on anything and that includes, drugs. Both the parents are drug-addicts and this has been going on for years. That will also explained their in and out of prison for many times.

    Under the care of the grandparents and uncles, Jerome grew up to be a boy that always searching for freedom because they were stricted to him. Whenever he sees children with parents, that would affect him because most of the time, the parents are in the prison. Many times, he would have wonder why he have to be the one going through all this and not having a complete family like what was always shown on TV. Though he was loved by his care-takers, the parental love was still missing. In the aspect of studies, he would not do well. He doesn't have the heart to study and because of the pressure he is getting, he grew to dislike studying. As a result, he was admitted to Normal Academic Stream.

    When he came to secondary school, it was a whole new environment and that includes a whole new bunch of friends. During secondary one, his paternal side's uncle shared the gospel with him and tries to get him to church. And since he had nothing to do and it looks cool to be a christian, he decided to go to church. His uncle then brought him to a church that is near to his home and then he was introduced to many people. Going to church and cell-group meeting is lots of fun but still he could not feel the love he wanted and needed. He was also in the basketball team and that leaves him juggling with studies, church and basketball. As his uncle was very strict, he faced objection to go to church. He could only choose church or basketball. Well, indeed he chose to go to church but still his uncle didn't allow him. As a result, he sticked to basketball.

    So as the secondary life goes on, he mixed with the wrong company and started to be rebellious and eventually, picked up smoking. At the same time, to fill the emptiness in his heart, he was looking for girlfriends. Well, that wasn't a problem, not because he is good-looking, but it's because he plays basketball and was notorious in school. Well, as the chinese saying goes, "Girls like guys that are bad." There are so many things he done wrong in secondary school. He smokes, start and end sentence with vulgarities, goes classroom to classroom to steal, defiant to teachers, whacks fellow-schoolmates. All was done because he just want to have fun and to be seen as "woah, he's the man." But still, of those things he had done, he is not satisfied. Nothing seems to satisfy him.

    During secondary 3, he had a dream and he dreamt of this cute girl that he had never seen b4. Well, he thought it was just a dream anyway. But one day, he really met that girl named Jessica and he was shocked that of all these times, she was one of the friends of his best friend. The thing was that he didn't take notice of her because his eyes were always looking at other girls? Well, he waited for this girl as she had a boyfriend and while waiting he had a girlfriend. The relationship was pretty good only when he heard that Jessica broke up with the boyfriend. He immediately break up with his girlfriend and went after Jessica. Well, having this sweet talking skill in him, nothing seems too impossible and eventually, the both of them got together.

    Jessica practically changed Jerome to a guy who no longer rebels against teacher, curse and swear and do all the things he used to do. Their relationship goes on strong till distraction came and that was the ex-gf of his decided to spoil their relationship. And other girls came along, so he fell into it and ended up cheating on Jessica. Not long after, Jessica broke up with him and he practically wasn't himself for a long long time. This girl holds a place in his heart till now though the memories is fading. He continues his casanova role but each time when he got the girl to like him or interest in him, he would draw away from the girls.

    At the last year of his studies in secondary school, his friend, Dan invited him to a church. This time round, he was old enough to make his own decision though he is still juggling between studies and basketball. He went and he never knew he would have rededicated his life to Jesus again and was planted in the church. He was showered with love and the people there really make him feel comfortable though he is new. As time goes by, he occasionally rose up to the occasion and his leader saw the potential in him. But before he could do anything, his cell-group merged with another cell. Nevertheless, he continues to love God and serve even more in the cell-group. He eventually rose up to the role of a helper and then became a cell-group guitarist and eventually a zone helper. He always wanted to fulfil his calling as a cell-group leader because of what God spoke to him only a few months into the church. What he always wanted to be seems to be able to come true any of the time.

    Though he has been doing a lot, there are areas that he still needed to attain the breakthrough but he just couldn't do it. And at the same time, he got to know a girl named Lynette. Obviously why lynette was mentioned is because he had a thing for her. The both of them became closer and spent literally everyday together. This was a major turning point of his ministry but he did not care a bit because he likes lynette a lot. Spending time with her, all the late night talking, sending her back home safely and the sweet-talking was indeed wonderful. He was really blessed because other than God's love and the care-takers' love, he felt the love and attention from lynette. But things began to change and well eventually they broke up 2 weeks after their officially getting together. Was that a right or a wrong decision made? He gave her this false hope by saying "If you are the right one, you will be eventually." The breaking up caused him everything in the ministry because of certain things.

    In his heart, he still want to fulfil what he wanted to be, but whenever he want to start doing something, things would come and stop him from proceeding. He feels tired even though he is not doing anything. I guess it's all about being tired of everything that has happened. How long is this break going to be?

    *Names are changed to protect the identity of people mentioned above, though some of you might know who they are exactly.

    Please do not ask any question regarding this post, it was posted out because it was posted out.


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 2:04 AM

    Tuesday, August 22, 2006
    This entry is inspired by tim's recent entry.


    I totally agreed with what he said. "If you want to soar like an eagle, don't hang around with turkeys" This doesn't mean that when you start to move on while your friends are not, you totally ignore their existence. You may be in a new group of soaring eagles now, but does that mean that you become arrogant or snoobish to even say hello or look at your friends? But think about this, there are a lot of soaring eagles that used to be like one of the turkeys in the group. Don't you think some eagles might have inspired them to rise up to greater heights? Standing at where you are now, you don't totally ignore your friends, it's all about helping them to soar together with you. This is what i call friendship when iron sharpens iron. We heard in the sermon so many times about moving on to the next group, but did the pastors say you neglect them or do not even help them? "With Greater Power Comes Greater Responsibility" It also applies to responsibility to help your friends to move a step closer to their calling and destiny. Even if the person is not willing to move on, that doesn't give you the excuse to ignore. Afterall, he/she is still your friend.

    Well, i can tell you i was like this. I learnt it the hard way. When you become arrogant just because you rise up to the rank, it's not going to benefit you in any way. Remember, "God resists the proud." I was resisted by God in so many ways because of the pride that was in me. What makes a great leader is Humility.

    Nuff said.

    Had a TRP prayer meeting and it was alright i guess.

    Celebrated belated birthday of Grace and early birthday for Calynne and Juncen. It was fun time with the TRP and peeps like Ger,Jacky,Meng and SK. Yup, but i was too tired to be really fun.

    OK, special mention to the Tiramisu cake. It was from Geraldine Liu Pi Ti. She asked why only show the blessing and not blessor. -_-

    I'm tired of living this life,
    I want a better life please.

    [Grace,Cal and Juncen with their presents.]

    [Them with their cards!]

    [The Group Photo]


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 2:01 AM

    Monday, August 21, 2006
    Letting go of the past, moving on to the future.


    I'm so blessed and inspired by the wise teaching of Dr.Ar Bernard. It's really mind-blowing and it really has brought my mind to so many places! What an experience to hear from the wise man of God who go deep into every single verses he quoted. Revelations and clearer understanding to our human mind!

    Some of the impactful points i have taken down on the last session:

    1- People need training more than they need counselling. Counselling is for those who have difficulties in implementing training.

    2-Whatever you sin against in life, you will cause death to the effectiveness of that certain thing from activating.

    3- Information you received will be processed in your Mind. As a result, it turns into Beliefs and it will either bring your Esteem higher or lower. Action will then be taken and it will produce Result that will in return, becomes a Habit. So this Habit will bring you to Success or Failure.

    Isn't this purely the wisdom of God that came through Dr.AR Bernard?

    Talking about being a piece of Information to the Marketplace. How you want yourself to be seen as an Information? A piece of good Information that will represent the church or a piece of good Information that will continue to stay away from the church? Think about this.

    Well, service was good. Fellowship was equally good. Had games and fun with my members and probably this is one of the happiest time when i laughed so much!

    [Almost after 30 rounds of heart attack, i finally got it!]

    [Candid shot by Caijun i think. ha!]

    [Xiao Hong,Da Tou,Xiao Ma!]

    Later on, went to Carl's Junior with the usual zone peeps for dinner and man we had great fun. Their companion are truly appreciated! And as usual, NICK TOH is up to his tricks and silly stuff. Tim1 and i only could say 1 thing, "What's new?" Nick also told us about his ideal partner. If you are a girl with bald head, 36D and can stand silly stuff. Contact me and i will get back to you as soon as possible. A good catch for you ladies out there! HA!


    [Tim happened to come down from the escalator!]

    [This tiramisu cake is nice!]

    Anyway, Lucas and Sandy and Ger, Last paper tmr! Do well and shine for the Lord! Weiwen, Tue is your last paper, All the best to you! If i miss out any, God bless you too!

    Found love beyond all reasons


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 12:56 AM

    Sunday, August 20, 2006
    The past 2 sessions with DR AR.Bernard is awesome. I can feel the Anointing and Faith that he carries the moment he's up on stage. It was totally an amazing time and all the time i was taking down notes and wow-ing because of the way he interprets simple things to wonderful revelation we've got. No wonder he is so wanted in our church!

    Specificity is the basis for co-operation, Generality deteriorates information.

    I totally agree with this. We might have experiences this before whereby we are told to do something without any guidelines? Yet, people still assumed us to know what to do and do it well. Don't be general, it just gives us room to interpret the way we thought it would be ideal to do. Think about that.

    Kristos Kai Kosmos = Christ in Culture!

    Something that deeply speaks to my heart being the Daniel/Joseph in the society. So what if your talents are only portrayed within the four walls of the church but people in the world cannot see it? If you are a good guitarist, enter your respective school Guitar Ensemble and excel there. I'm proud of the dancers in our church because they create the opportunities to dance for gigs or competitions. Prizes are not the most important, what important is the difference people would see in them, which is the anointing! How are we going to start it?

    Love is choice. We love not because we have or need to, it's because we choose to. It came a little too late isn't it? Seriously, i have never really understood this principle till the marriage seminar started and well of course what Dr Bernard had went through.

    Definitely, another session of mind blowing session with Dr.Bernard on Sunday!

    For good times and bad times,
    I will choose to love.
    It's a choice, it's my choice.
    If only...

    I humble myself
    Once again
    i ask for Your divine direction
    to lead me to where i ought to be
    to fulfil my life calling.


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 12:27 AM

    Friday, August 18, 2006
    Right now, i'm as RED as Xiaohong! (Shing) Well, went Sentosa with my Marketing Cohort. It was alright though. We had our own friends and Initially we talked among ourselves, only after some time, then we started to mix around and it was quite fun.



    [The closer friends in Marketing]


    Basically what we do were just tanning and volleyball sessions. And of course, taking pictures!



    [The Sentimentals! Missing person- Sern Ming]



    [Marketing OEI!]



    [Playing in the water]


    After bathing session and stuff, we proceeded to eat at harbourfront.



    [Kazumi and me]


    [Us again]

    [Look at what im eating. Its wanton tissue. ha!]

    Against all odds


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 1:58 AM

    Thursday, August 17, 2006
    I heard this from Jeremy:

    One of the two most famous gays in Lasalle tried to hit on his friend, Kenneth. This gay is well-built and were wearing a singlet and shorts. Well, Jeremy and Kenneth were queuing for their food after ordering and this gay came along and order. After some time, Jeremy noticed that the gay was looking at kenneth for some time. Well, i don't know why Jeremy is looking at that gay, probably he is also... Well that's not the point. Anyway, Jeremy was thinking, "is he trying to hit on kenneth?" Indeed, the gay moved in front and purposely banged on kenneth and the worst thing was, HE PINCHED HIS BUTT!

    How would you react to this? Darren and i was laughing so hard when we heard it. The guy didn't really dare to do anything because the gay is strong you see. Didn't want anymore trouble. Met up with the Jeremy and Darren at Tampines. Half of the time we were talking about music and guitar related stuff. Well, we just share the same passion.

    Well, i saw the news just now and it says, According to AC Niclsen surveys, only 3 out of 10 respondents got what they wanted as a gift from somebody. In addition, females always find it tough to get things for males, and that is what i always heard. I guess what guys really want is something that is not practical. We would like to have something that is useful and that can be either wore or used. As for the females, it's much easier because you get either the practical stuff or items that effort will be involved (bake a cake etc) would be equally good. It's the effort or thought that counts. Well, my opinion. What do you think?

    A color test that i just did.

    1. DESIRED OBJECTIVES OR BEHAVIOR DICTATED BY DESIRED OBJECTIVES.
    Defiantly opposes any sort of restriction or opposition. Sticks obstinately to his own point of view in the belief that this proves his independence and self-determination.


    2. THE EXISTING SITUATION OR BEHAVIOR APPROPRIATE TO THE EXISTING SITUATION.
    Attracted by anything new, modern or intriguing. Liable to be bored by humdrum, the ordinary or the traditional.


    3. CHARACTERISTICS UNDER RESTRAINT OR BEHAVIOR INAPPROPRIATETO THE EXISTING SITUATION.
    Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity. Feels cut off and unhappy because of the difficulty in achieving the essential degree of co-operation and harmony which he desires.


    4. REJECTED OR SUPPRESSED CHARACTERISTICS OR ANXIETY-LADEN CHARACTERISTICS.
    Displays impatience and agitation. Feels that life has far more to offer and that it is imperative that he should find the responsive and understanding relationship he is seeking; he therefore follows up any opportunity which presents itself. However, he.maintains his attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off his feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict and watchful control on his emotional relationships as he must know exactly where he stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against his own tendency to be too trusting. Controlled responsiveness.


    5. THE ACTUAL PROBLEM OR BEHAVIOR RESULTING FROM STRESS.
    The fear that he may be prevented from achieving the things he wants drives him to the exploration of all types of experiences, so that he can categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration becomes his method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of futility. Afraid that he may be prevented from achieving the things he wants and therefore demands that others should recognize his right to them.

    Well, some are really true. Anyway, The Marketers will be going to Sentosa tmr! Hope we have fun!

    Thoughts that could not be translated into Words


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 12:51 AM

    Wednesday, August 16, 2006
    A day that would have gone well was finally struck by the conversation i had with my leader after Prayer Meeting. It was all good till my leader wanted a talk with me. In my heart, i was thinking will it be something bad again? Well, i must be the luckiest guy to win the lottery, from my leader.

    How would you feel when the things you said are being misunderstood by your leader, and this time the thing said was on the leader herself!? Man, i wonder how would you react, now that you seem like a hypocritical person. Misinterpretation really make your life suffer. A comment turning to something that aims at your leader? How would it have felt if you are the one sitting there, listening to what she says and feeling so helpless because trying to defend yourself would mean that you are unteachable and always so defensive? Don't ask me why i said that, because i experienced it before.

    This is what BRO KC has blogged, which i totally agree!

    What is more important for a musician? Anointing or Competence. Many Christians will jump in saying anointing without putting much thoughts into the question. It always seem more correct to say that because it sounds more spiritual. Now I am not about to go into a big theological debate but I do sometimes wonder why some seemingly lazy musicians will use this as an excuse to cover up their incompetetnce, or worst, when they see a technically competent non Christian musician who plays better than them, they'll say "but we have the anointing!" as a way to excuse themselves and set themselves somewhat special. As if God cannot give talents to hardworking non-Christians.

    While anointing can give you the special grace in playing and in ministering. It cannot always be a substitute for your lack of competence. God may work on our behalf when we first start out and are not adequate but if our attitude remains to be complacent and not seeking to improve, we'll grow stale sooner or later and do you think He'll reward our unfaithfulness in being His stewards?

    I really do respect you as a leader, in fact one who has changed my life and make me a better person. I never see myself better than you, though at times i felt it could be better. But that doesn't mean that i think you are not good! It's totally rubbish! I never say i am better than you, and sometimes when you played, it makes me wonder am i as good as you. It's true. But i felt the above is quite important. Though Bro KC is a musician while we are not, but as guitarist i feel we have the responsibility to play good music and try to limit the errors as much as possible! Anointing and Skills to be are mutually exclusive. If really anointing rules everything, anyone would have be a guitarist. It's just like if you are a cell group leader for few years, it won't stop you from practicing and preaching your best sermon, isn't it? Anointed without getting the sermon across to the hearts of the people is no good, yes?

    It's purely what i feel when i have said all those things. It could have been interpreted in a better way, but well, i guess i just got to keep my mouth SHUT. I learnt it the hard way.

    Thanks to those who are concerned, really appreciate all the encouragement. I guess i'm the only one who can decide how things will go from here. Let's see how it will turn out to be like.


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 1:55 AM

    Tuesday, August 15, 2006
    What a day i had. Spent most of the time on bed. Thank God i had the night to look forward to. Went to play basketball with Pastor and both Bro.Kenny and Bro,Joseph came. It was fun. Played my heart out and hopefully some weight OUT! Oh yes, Pastor Tan will be coming in few weeks time. Kailin, if you are reading, don't be jealous!

    The best way to predict future is to invent it. (Alan Kay)

    I read this somewhere while surfing the net and this phrase simply caught my attention. How many times people see a bright future ahead of them, but only to realise that it was all wishful thinking or daydreaming? Mere talking won't make you successful. I mean if that is true, i guess everyone would be as successful, isn't it? We just have to create our own future. Some things may be predestined, but it's up to us making the right decision whether to take the shorter or longer route to our destiny? Just have to take the initiative to make things happen. So what do you see yourself doing in the future? Start taking action people!

    Well, just a thought that hits me and that is what blogging is about, right? Blogging your thoughts and feelings down. A place where i can release what i want to let out, and of course the easier way, without having to say anything. haha.

    My friend just informed me of survey thingy which only requires me to taste some new formulated drinks? 1hr-$30. Good opportunity! Might have a few times! i hope i really will get it!

    Huiying just pasted me this link to a music school where i can learn sing and music composition. Well, 4 lessons and i have to pay $100 over. Like what she said, it always involve some sacrifices and man why has it always got to involve money! Like what people always say, "Money cannot buy certain things" but get a life! Without money you can't even buy anything, especially in Singapore!

    I want some music composition books! Someone please get the hint! :)


    So blessed to have you loving me
    So glad having you living in me
    I was lost but now i'm found
    Because of what you did on calvary


    Everyday you wait earnestly
    just a talk between you and me
    I don't want to disappoint you O lord
    Becuase you are all i have got


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 2:21 AM

    Monday, August 14, 2006
    Service was awesome. Guys just have to be decisive and always be ready to lead. This does not apply to married guys only, but also to guys like you and I. We need to be decisive in things that we do. For those in a relationship, starting to be decisive now is way better. Don't wait till you get married, i guess it will remain unchanged because you will be too used to it.


    [We were asked by glenn to wear formal -_-]


    So after service, fellowshipped a little at expo and went to meet glenn to watch dance competition with the O school people. O crew's did really well! Total respect. The sad thing was that they only emerged as the first runner up. Well, good job still!

    [Miss Swan, gEr and me]

    [CurryPok leader and me]

    [Chewie can imitate the smile of miss swan very well, but she just refused to do it.]

    Well, went to meet up the zone peeps and had Kenny Rogers for dinner. I was trying to be like Ms Swan and disturb the waiter. I think the male waiter was kinda scared of me. hahaa.

    [The Girls!]

    [The Guys!]

    [The Guys again!]

    [The group photo!]

    [Tim was the center of attention. just look at him.]


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 12:36 AM

    Sunday, August 13, 2006
    First - This song really touches my heart deeply. We should be really glad to have a good composer in Bro KC.

    Still remember the FIRST time of those things that means a lot to you?

    Different people have different meaningful moments. And i'm not even talking about "the first time i got married" and "the first time i robbed some people" I mean you have done that the 2nd or 3rd time? Oh well..

    My First Love
    Forever You will be
    My First Breath
    You're the life in me
    My First Joy
    The world can never take from me
    My covenant with You, Jesus

    I still remember the FIRST time i came to City Harvest. It was 2004 April. My then best buddy, Jeremy invited me for Easter Weekend. I went and everyone was so nice. Everything was perfectly good. Eventually i rededicated my heart to Jesus. It was great.

    During my O level period, He was the one who breathe in life to me. I never get tired, mugging up to 40+ hours per week. Juggling between basketball and studies. As tired as i was, the strength of God just renewed me day by day. He lives in me. Everyday is more of Him and less of me.

    And how i remember the opportunity He had given me to enjoy my First 3 months in SAJC. It was hell lots of fun and man, i really miss the people there. When i gotten back my result,my score could only allowed me to enrol to Polytechnic. Well, i was really disappointed.

    But well, look at me now. I'm enjoying every bit that i'm doing in Marketing. The friends i made during my Polytechnic life and so are the wonderful memories. It's more of joy than pain.

    Other than all these things, there are so many things that cannot be explained through blogging.

    Treasure your FIRST. It's never easy to experience it again. especially LOVE.


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 1:41 AM

    Friday, August 11, 2006
    Have you people ever did something so wrong that immediately from where you are, you fell all the way down to the bottom pit? Well, i experienced that.


    When certain thing happened, the feeling of being pushed all the way down to the bottom was unbearable. My walk with God slows down, i can see the sort of laid back attitude in me at times. The zeal and the fire is gone. Things that i used to do, i no longer touching it. I have to face people who asked things like "hey, when are you fulfilling your calling?" It's not i don't want to. It's because the timing isn't right and i lack the "something" to become one. At times, the feeling of " i wasn't cut out to do it" would just haunt me.


    So what if i can play the guitar well? So what if i have leadership qualities? So what if i can give the best ideas when no one else can offer? It's not just about talents. No wonder "God sometimes would use the foolish to put to shame the wise." How i wish i could start all over again.


    It was really a hard fall. Guess the only way is to put aside every other thing in my life to focus on God. I can't understand how God works, but surely He is working on me. A bad fall now would be better off a fall when i hold some position.


    My world seems to collapse
    because of what i've done
    A chance is what i plead
    But it never came to me


    I truly regret the days
    when i make the very wrong step
    It stays with me till then
    and everything was blown away


    I thought i had a chance
    i took my guit to play and dance
    Only then when a phone call came
    It makes my heart filled with pain


    Nevertheless im standing strong
    It's your love and grace that keeps me on
    I run towards your outstretch arms
    and it keeps me from hurts and harms


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 2:10 PM

    Thursday, August 10, 2006
    Finally done with this semester! I couldn't wait for this semester to end. I don't know why i am lacking this zeal in my studies. I'm lazy, i'm always tired and easily been distracted. Well, still i pray for good results. haha! Thank you teammates for all the hardwork, you guys done well!


    Anyway, finally went out with my groupmates. Caught a movie "My Super Ex-GirlFriend". It was darn hilarious though i thought i would just fall asleep because i was so sleepy! 4 stars for this movie! Well, went shopping and stuff and i had nothing to do so i decided to try out some shirts. haha.

    [Zara - $89]

    [Puma - $69]

    Didn't buy any of the above though. I rather save more to go SKIN.

    [Birkenstock - $86.28]

    Should i even get it? My classmates is gathering people to buy to get free shipping. My Oh My, i have got so much to buy. My pocket is empty, but my heart is filled. LOL! Isn't it familiar?

    [Fender Stratocaster]

    Recently, i'm quite into electric guitar and after playing a little on jeremy's epiphone, i really feel like having my own electric. Oh man, i have an expensive hobby. Well, another acoustic would be good too. haha!

    [Takamine EG 340C]

    Songwriting in progress, hope it would be good. ((:


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 11:37 PM

    Monday


    Had my first test. Relatively good and hoping for good grades. Played bball with Pastors but the key players are missing because Pastor YK thought not many are going. Ps Tan, Ps Derrick, Bro Joseph and Bro Kenny are all missing. ha! Anyway i saw this poster on the school's notice board and i find it rather amusing. Dumb though.




    Tuesday


    Went out with my dearest TRP people and 1 from NP. haha! the Noise Pollution. woohoo. Great time catching up at Cafe Cartel. Went to Jeremy's place for some catching up and some of the updates really shocked me somewhere that i forgotten to come back. haa. Well, unpredictable. Stayed up all the way to 6am and we had to wake up at 8+! supporting the Joyous Perfection crew at Punggol.



    [She's from NP (Noise Pollution)]



    [That is my glenn for you]


    Wednesday


    Saw a lot of harvester at the Performance. The J7, Joyous Perfection and the Drama team. Talk to that James after so long. Man, it's time we catch up. After that went back to Jeremy house with XX and she cooked. haha! We all agreed she can be a good wife, unlikeee....


    Had an outreach at SimVille Condo. All was good except i'm too tired to stay back further. Went back home and off to bed.


    Well, Brand Mgt paper tmr! last and that's my start of the holiday! Is that a good news or a bad one? haaa.



    It's all so free
    to do what i want
    No limitation
    No irritation



    -Choonsie Concludes- at 2:45 AM

    Monday, August 07, 2006
    It was such a long day for me! Woke up at 620am and gave a lot of morning call to many people. haha. Went to indoor stadium early to queue up and i met calynne they all in the queue. Sandy was so desperate to look ahead, only to be blocked by the arm wrestler in our church, TERRY MILES. LOLL.



    [Eh, can you please move away?]


    Service was definitely great with all the various item prepared . It's 17th anniversary and Happy Birthday My CHC! It's also Pastor Kong's 20th year in full-time ministry. Salute this Man of God. Thank God for such a good pastor. :) So after service, were waiting for chartered bus and yes i saw this retarded girl. ha! it's the power of "SEE YOU!!!"



    [Forever so retarded!]



    [Janice, Ger, Choons]


    Went for a quick lunch at Paya Lebar Singpost and went back to queue up for FOP!




    [People waiting for the queue to move on]



    [FOP crowd!]



    [Sandy, Dannon and Me]



    [Kim, Me, Sandy, Dannon]


    [Tim, Sandy Me]



    [Sandy and I]

    So FOP finale was really nice. We really got hyped up though during the word, i was half the time trying to stay awake. Nicki Fletcher kinda got "high" and she was like dancing, swinging her hair and she tripped the wire and nearly fell. ha! Well, in the end, she still did. when the drum hit the last beat, she purposely fell on to the floor. haha.


    Saw them after service and took photos!



    [Ryan Smith and i!]



    [Nikki Fletcher and i!]



    [Josh, Joe and us!]


    This band is formed up with cool bunch of Youth and man they rock the world up side down! They are really humble and no air of arrogance, which make them really likable. haha! Below is another likable band! CHC BAND! ha! PLEASE LOOK AT BRO DAV!



    [Ps Sidney with the CHC band members!]


    -Choonsie Concludes- at 1:27 AM