2 decades ago, a baby boy named Jerome came to this world. Unfortunately, at the age of 2, his parents divorced and the custody goes to the mother. The father didn't want him to be a burden. Together with his mum, he lives with his grandparents and his 2 uncles. They have been taking care of him and all expenses are paid by the grandparents. His mum worked in a factory but would splurged money on anything and that includes, drugs. Both the parents are drug-addicts and this has been going on for years. That will also explained their in and out of prison for many times.

Under the care of the grandparents and uncles, Jerome grew up to be a boy that always searching for freedom because they were stricted to him. Whenever he sees children with parents, that would affect him because most of the time, the parents are in the prison. Many times, he would have wonder why he have to be the one going through all this and not having a complete family like what was always shown on TV. Though he was loved by his care-takers, the parental love was still missing. In the aspect of studies, he would not do well. He doesn't have the heart to study and because of the pressure he is getting, he grew to dislike studying. As a result, he was admitted to Normal Academic Stream.

When he came to secondary school, it was a whole new environment and that includes a whole new bunch of friends. During secondary one, his paternal side's uncle shared the gospel with him and tries to get him to church. And since he had nothing to do and it looks cool to be a christian, he decided to go to church. His uncle then brought him to a church that is near to his home and then he was introduced to many people. Going to church and cell-group meeting is lots of fun but still he could not feel the love he wanted and needed. He was also in the basketball team and that leaves him juggling with studies, church and basketball. As his uncle was very strict, he faced objection to go to church. He could only choose church or basketball. Well, indeed he chose to go to church but still his uncle didn't allow him. As a result, he sticked to basketball.

So as the secondary life goes on, he mixed with the wrong company and started to be rebellious and eventually, picked up smoking. At the same time, to fill the emptiness in his heart, he was looking for girlfriends. Well, that wasn't a problem, not because he is good-looking, but it's because he plays basketball and was notorious in school. Well, as the chinese saying goes, "Girls like guys that are bad." There are so many things he done wrong in secondary school. He smokes, start and end sentence with vulgarities, goes classroom to classroom to steal, defiant to teachers, whacks fellow-schoolmates. All was done because he just want to have fun and to be seen as "woah, he's the man." But still, of those things he had done, he is not satisfied. Nothing seems to satisfy him.

During secondary 3, he had a dream and he dreamt of this cute girl that he had never seen b4. Well, he thought it was just a dream anyway. But one day, he really met that girl named Jessica and he was shocked that of all these times, she was one of the friends of his best friend. The thing was that he didn't take notice of her because his eyes were always looking at other girls? Well, he waited for this girl as she had a boyfriend and while waiting he had a girlfriend. The relationship was pretty good only when he heard that Jessica broke up with the boyfriend. He immediately break up with his girlfriend and went after Jessica. Well, having this sweet talking skill in him, nothing seems too impossible and eventually, the both of them got together.

Jessica practically changed Jerome to a guy who no longer rebels against teacher, curse and swear and do all the things he used to do. Their relationship goes on strong till distraction came and that was the ex-gf of his decided to spoil their relationship. And other girls came along, so he fell into it and ended up cheating on Jessica. Not long after, Jessica broke up with him and he practically wasn't himself for a long long time. This girl holds a place in his heart till now though the memories is fading. He continues his casanova role but each time when he got the girl to like him or interest in him, he would draw away from the girls.

At the last year of his studies in secondary school, his friend, Dan invited him to a church. This time round, he was old enough to make his own decision though he is still juggling between studies and basketball. He went and he never knew he would have rededicated his life to Jesus again and was planted in the church. He was showered with love and the people there really make him feel comfortable though he is new. As time goes by, he occasionally rose up to the occasion and his leader saw the potential in him. But before he could do anything, his cell-group merged with another cell. Nevertheless, he continues to love God and serve even more in the cell-group. He eventually rose up to the role of a helper and then became a cell-group guitarist and eventually a zone helper. He always wanted to fulfil his calling as a cell-group leader because of what God spoke to him only a few months into the church. What he always wanted to be seems to be able to come true any of the time.

Though he has been doing a lot, there are areas that he still needed to attain the breakthrough but he just couldn't do it. And at the same time, he got to know a girl named Lynette. Obviously why lynette was mentioned is because he had a thing for her. The both of them became closer and spent literally everyday together. This was a major turning point of his ministry but he did not care a bit because he likes lynette a lot. Spending time with her, all the late night talking, sending her back home safely and the sweet-talking was indeed wonderful. He was really blessed because other than God's love and the care-takers' love, he felt the love and attention from lynette. But things began to change and well eventually they broke up 2 weeks after their officially getting together. Was that a right or a wrong decision made? He gave her this false hope by saying "If you are the right one, you will be eventually." The breaking up caused him everything in the ministry because of certain things.

In his heart, he still want to fulfil what he wanted to be, but whenever he want to start doing something, things would come and stop him from proceeding. He feels tired even though he is not doing anything. I guess it's all about being tired of everything that has happened. How long is this break going to be?